You have been reading my recent posts, hit and miss, just like they have been posted and now you think I have totally lost it. You are saying to me right now, ” It’s BATS in the Belfry, Bats. BATS. Geeze lady, have you totally flipped now?”
I assure you I have not and it is Squirrels namely, Dougie and Trouble, just as I
promised. The “Belfry” being the rafters in the garage. Actually, Trouble has a home just outside the back window of the garage and usually goes over the rooftops to get to the feeding station out front of the house. I guess I should check on that since the rains set in today. The boys (my grand sons) and I made the feeding tray drainable to help keep their food dry but it wasn’t meant to be out when we are getting almost two inches in a day. Those sunflower seeds will be growing without the help of Dougie and Trouble planting them.t As for my comment about the squirrels in the rafters, Trouble makes a quick trip overhead any time Steve is working out there and has left the doors open as an invitation to come see what he is doing for any one or any little squirrel passing by. However, with the weather turning colder Steve could have a renter for the winter if he’s not careful. I’m sure Trouble has eyed up the living situation and compared it to his own as he has made those trips through. Now Dougie has a place out front. Maybe even two or three of them as we haven’t been able to track an exact spot down for him. He’s probably got one place full of his winter stash and sticks mostly to it by now. I used to think that the squirrels hibernate in the winter but they don’t. They just don’t like to go out much so they stash plenty of food and stack themselves into their living quarters like core blocks to stay warm. Just the same, now that I know they aren’t hibernating I will make sure there is food out for the winter this year. The sunflowers Dougie and Trouble planted aren’t going to hang around for them to collect seeds from them. We have the flowers in almost every planter or everything that might hold a bit of dirt. In the horse trough that wasn’t being used so we planted some watermelons and squash for the kids to grow in it and out in the potato boxes where we got very few potatoes but plenty of the sunflowers and in most of my flower pots on the porch. It was quite a hoot to watch these squirrely fellows going at it. Little Dougie had to have made three hundred trips across that front yard if he made one.
Now back to “Bat’s in the Belfry” which implies just what you think it would mean like you have gone totally mad, off in the head, crazy, nuts, and just lost your mind. Actually, a Belfry is the bell tower usually of a church and yes, bat’s would hang out there, in the darkness, until the bell was rung that is. As far as the usual understanding of the phrase though, no I have not finally gone mad, crazy, etc but many days I feel like I have. I have kept it together for many years and will through this period of loss and grief I’m going through right now too. I may not be quite the same person afterwards but then, who could be. There are too many lives at stake here for me to not hold on. My strength will get me through and my husband will help me keep my strength. I will stop crying for most of the time, eventually. Get over it? No. Understand it all? No, never. Have reoccurring attacks of grief pop back into my mind and my heart? Yes, probably often. Continue to need to have an outlet for my grief? Always. You will too if you are suffering from PTSD, due to a tremendous shock, or a terrible incident in your life such as a death. Now is the time to think about that, before it happens. Could you keep it together?